Hi I’m Rivkah
Mother, survivor, somatic coach and work in progress.
A lover of life, I feel wildly alive. But I didn’t used to feel this way.
I used to numb the pain, the trauma, the dysfunctional relationships. I wasn’t actually alive, I was just living, just existing and it took a near death experience to wake me up. An awakening further deepened when I became a mother, opening up a portal to fully explore myself.
I don’t claim to have it all figured out, I’m not sure anyone does. But I’m true to myself. I am me always. And I continue to journey deeper into who I am and who I choose to be in this world. Learning to be the most alive version of myself is an ever evolving and continuous process, especially when juggling life with a toddler.
Empowered mothering is something I’m wildly passionate about - the most poignant piece for me is that a mother meets her own needs and knows she’s worthy of experiencing life as alive as possible, as an individual woman and mother, because it’s her birthright, not just because it benefits her children.
I’m a woman who now knows I’m worthy, whole and complete and have everything inside of me – this is what I desire for you too.
My mission is to help mothers like you become wildly alive. Because when you do, you get to live the vibrant life you are destined for.
I didn’t know it back then
Since birth I’d been experiencing complex developmental trauma and became a parentified child at a young age – shifting and neglecting my own needs to manage the emotions of others.
This neglect led to dysfunctional and abusive relationships, severe depression and a complete identity crisis. By age 20 I had absolutely no idea who I was.
Having dropped out of university, I fell into creative advertising, surrounding myself with people and substances to numb the emptiness and loneliness I felt inside. I worked hard and partied even harder.
Until 2013, I'd been living but I wasn’t actually alive.
Until I nearly died.
At that moment, everything changed.
Living life
in overdrive
Burnt out and living life in overdrive, in January 2013 I was ill but couldn’t see it, I couldn’t hear it and I couldn’t feel it. I was utterly exhausted.
I couldn’t get out of bed but thought it was because I was stressed with work and was probably hungover or on a come down.
I remember struggling to walk up an escalator, I was only 28.
I would go to work but struggle to concentrate, my head felt like fuzz and even little jobs would take me forever.
I would work all day and still be working into the evening, I kept spacing out and couldn’t function properly.
Again, I just thought I was tired, stressed and unhappy.
From the outside, it looked like I had a fabulous life – a large and vibrant group of friends, a non-stop social life, and a creative career.
On the inside, it couldn’t have felt more different – I was desperately lonely and terrified of allowing the feelings to surface.
But this wasn’t sustainable. This wasn’t an alive life.
I ignored my body for far too long
My body had been talking to me but I’d ignored it, so it screamed until I had no choice but to listen.
Because it turned out I had an undiagnosed autoimmune condition, Type 1 Diabetes. My blood sugars were 6 times the level they should be.
My blood was turning to vinegar and my organs were slowly starting to shut down. If I hadn’t been admitted to hospital, within a couple of hours I would have been in a coma.
After leaving hospital I started to see a nutritional therapist and realised this was what I wanted to do – so I started my four year training.
During those four years I was diagnosed with ME, MCAS, histamine intolerance, POTS, joint hypermobility syndrome, hypothyroidism and a whole heap of other hormonal imbalances. There were times when I was bedridden, struggled to speak, dress myself or function.
The transformation
Getting really ill and nearly dying was the extreme wake up call I needed to change my life.
Since then I’ve transformed my dysfunctional relationships with myself, my body, men, sex, food, family, alcohol and drugs, and for the first time feel truly alive – I’m not afraid to feel things any more and it feels wonderful!
I still have health conditions but I don’t let them define who I am.
I want to help you feel truly alive too.
Having trained as a Trauma-Informed Somatic Coach, Transformational Life Coach, Motherhood Studies Practitioner, Emotional Freedom Technique Practitioner and Nutritional Therapist, I help mothers to feel wildly alive too.
To come home to themselves physically, mentally and emotionally so they can experience the fullness that life has to offer.
To have the freedom and joy that comes from feeling safe enough to feel all emotions. To take up space in the world, in their relationships, in their families. To step into their courage, deep in inner belief, knowing, groundedness and trust, so they can do life from this place and allow the magic to unfold.
My world changed again
In 2021 I became a mum and my world changed again. Because it opened up a portal to go even deeper into myself, who I am and who I choose to be in this world. I already had a deep sense of self and becoming a mum added new layers to who I choose to be in this life.
I’ve become more myself.
I’ve learnt (and continue to learn) how to reparent myself so I can feel loved, supported and mothered in each moment I need. So I can notice every time something activates me – the things I didn’t receive or feel as a child – enabling me to give myself those things now. To repair, to heal trauma, to know myself and feel connected even deeper to myself so I have a strong, secure and grounded base to experience life from and shift deeply rooted family dynamics on a systemic and generational level.
I don’t have it all figured out, I’m not sure anyone does, but I’m constantly expanding, and can now sit in the discomfort that comes with growing and changing.
Learning to be the most alive version of myself is a continuous process.
I don’t want any mothers to go through life without feeling wildly alive. And I don’t want another mother to have to go through nearly dying in order to feel wildly alive.
I’m here to create massive shifts & transformations.
Be prepared. When we work together we go deep, and that’s not for everyone. I’m here for those who:
Are ready to take radical self-responsibility for themselves and their lives
Are willing to take action before there’s evidence
Want to invest in themselves, and go all in
Desire to experience every possibility and opportunity that’s available to them in this life
Because we only have one life - why would you not risk exploring it all?
My mission is to help mothers like you become wildly alive.
If you’re ready to feel wildly alive, let’s have a chat.